Reasons for a No
You are afraid of the decision and fear falling back into old and destructive patterns. With such a high level of doubts and worries, you should decide on a no.
At least you will be free of the pressure to make a choice. At least you will be free of the pressure of making a choice and can concentrate on other things in your life.
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